A Million Jesi?

P: Lord, in your word I read things like You killing the rebellious and punishing the unrighteous. What is that about, and how can that be a part of You if You are Love?

L: Patrick, you can pour oil and water together into any sort of container, and no matter what you do, if you let the container alone, the two will separate. So it is with those who love Me and those who reject Me. It isn’t a question of whether I am slaying them or bringing down the hammer of punishment on their heads. It is the fact that they are separate from me, and they have no part in My kingdom. That in itself is death, because eternal life is knowing Me. You often hear fire and brimstone preached. Fire and brimstone are not Me, they are the absolute absence of Me. Passing into a place where I am absent is absolute torture and misery. You cannot imagine it, because nothing on earth is like it. Fire and brimstone are imagery of the torture.

Think of dark and light. Darkness is the absence of light, simply. Darkness cannot emanate or reflect, it has no source, it only exists in contrast to light, because the absence of light creates the darkness. So, when there is no light in something, and it is exposed to light, what would happen?

P: It would be forced to ether reflect light or they would cease to exist?

L: That is the torture. It could exist in the light, but only by becoming something that reflects it. This is the process of being born again. Anything that is not of light will be “burned up” by its intensity. The point is, the source of the pain and the torture in the soul comes from the absence of Me, not from my active seeking to destroy. My will is to fill the heavens and the earth, and by nature, those that are not of me either are born again into light, or they will be destroyed by the purity, Holiness and intensity of My presence. What is not born of Me cannot exist in Me.

P: What are the new heavens and the new earth You talk about in your word?

L: When I come in all my glory, darkness will pass away. Without darkness, the heavens and the earth will pass away. In other words, right now, in the earth and in the heavens exist darkness, because of the rebellion of the host of Satan, and the existence of sin in man. When the heavens and the earth are full of Me, neither demon nor sin can exist. Lucifer will no longer have any dominion and the Earth will be spotless and perfect. Not even a memory of them will exist, because I AM will fill both heaven and the earth. I am waiting for my bride, my people, my love. When my bride and I are one together will this happen.

P: Lord, what does it look like for your people to become one with you? How many people does it take until You are united with people? Is it quantity? Is it quality of our oneness? What does it look like?

L: Patrick, you are asking a good question, but it is not an easy one to answer. Look at your marriage. You and your wife have been made “one.” But the most intimate place of oneness is a moment. Can you maintain that moment? Can you maintain that moment in quantity or quality? Oneness with Me has only been seen in Jesus’s life on Earth. There is your answer. Oneness is displayed in perfectly revealing who I AM. What would it look like if a billion Jesus’s were running around the Earth? You should imagine an answer to that question. It is a good topic for you.

What would it look like?

P: I cannot imagine it. I can try, but I would fail miserably. But it seems that it would be a matter of time before evil could not exist on the earth if all people lived in the same manner as Jesus. But how could a million, billion or trillion Jesus people take place? It seems to me that the reason He existed was to pay the penalty for the evil of man.

L: Yes, that was His purpose. So why then does man continue in their folly? Man does not believe in Me. Man has turned Christianity into a lifestyle, and turned away from adoption into a heavenly kingdom. Man will turn to me, but only when my kingdom is the first thing they seek. When people seek comfort in my goodness and food for their spiritual hunger, they seek an inferior kingdom. My kingdom is knowing Me, as you are coming to know Me. Only then is there true comfort and true food. As I have told you, this question is a little beyond reason, and a little beyond faith, even. It is a deep truth of the kingdom. But as people sought Jesus on the earth because He fed them and He healed them, only those who seek Him for Him will come to the truth. Jesus was never a solution to life’s problems, but a new birth for mankind, and a restoration of life to it. Remember, however, that Jesus lived before He died and was resurrected. What did His life look like? What was important about it, and how does it perfectly reveal Me?

P: That is a difficult teaching, Lord. Will I be able to understand this?

L: Of course. I AM telling you this so that you can discover the depth of it. Right now, it is hard, but it will become a deep truth for you in your life. It is part of the revival of your heart, and the revival you will spread to the hearts of others. Do not forget to imagine what it would be like for all of mankind to look like Me. That is your road to discovery. The church in Acts is a good section to read, but not for the answer, only for a contrast to your present reality in the church.

Praying for Richane

P: Lord, thank you for such a wonderful wife. I really enjoy her friendship and her love. Thank you for helping us find each other.

L: You are welcome. You two will be friends for a good long time. It is a wonderful thing to have a close companion with whom you can do anything.

P: Lord, how can I pray for her and bless her?

L: Empower her. Show her the potential inside her, and help her to use it.

P: Lord, sometimes she seems a little reticent about having a more personal relationship with You. Is there anything I can do?

L: Not in any active sense. However, she is vigilant of the relationship you have with Me. She knows there is something deeper. Did you want anything deeper when you were younger, or were you afraid of me?

P: Yes and yes. I did want something deeper, but I was convinced it was not possible, and even then I was afraid that something deeper would be some sort of religious prison. What can I do Lord? I want her to know you, as I know you. I want her to more in love with you than she is with me.

L: First, know that by loving her, you are loving Me, and by her loving you she is loving me. What do you think she sees in you?

P: My rugged good looks?

L: I love you Patrick. Yes, there is that, but she sees me in you. I AM what she first saw in you, whether she realized it or not. Patrick, you have become more and more like me, whether you always believe it or not. People are attracted to real love. You have always been a lover, but recently, you have become a lover of me, and a lover like me. That is the attraction. So, even though your desire is for her to really know and love me in the way you do, don’t confuse who I made you to be and who I made her to be. She is not the same kind of person that you are, and the ways she loves are not the same. But, she is in love with me. She has yet to express it in ways that you understand, because you seek my voice and you seek the deep, because you want the rich juice of who I AM. You are further along than she, and you are also a person who wants the rich juice out of everyone you meet.

P: Ok, Lord. I understand. But, I still want her to know your voice, to know your peace, to know your love, and to be totally in love with you.

L: It’s only your first year Patrick. Not even you loved me as little as five years ago. Give her time and let her soak in my love. It usually does the trick.

P: Ok, Lord. Thanks for her. She is such a blessing.

Book by fall

P: Lord, I have no question to ask you that I have not asked before. So, I do not know how to start.

L: How about “Hello!” Do you think that I get tired of your questions? If you asked me the question “What would you say to me today?” a million times, I would have a new answer for you, every time.

As for today, I want you to know that I love you. Let’s look at what that means. Close your eyes and look into my eyes. My entire being pulses with desire to be with you and to see you become the king that I have crowned.

P: Lord, I can feel your love. I love you, too. What do you do with that desire?

L: I seek man. I set traps of goodness, and I try to capture man’s attention.That is the beginning.

P: Lord, what would you like to say to me this morning?

L: Patrick when fall comes, you will have a book.

P: That is not very far away, Lord. Are you saying that I will have written a book, or that I will know what the book is about and will be writing it?

L: You will have finished writing. I want you to know that I am about to unlock many things to you, and you must write them in a book, and you must be diligent to work on this regularly. Keep your computer with you at all times, and write when you hear my voice. I will be speaking to you. You need to keep your ears open.

P: But, Lord, its only two months away.

L: Imagine writing 4 hours a day. How much can you write in 60 days? How much can you write in 240 hours? You used to be able to write 12 page papers in one night, when you sat down and concentrated. Consider that as about 8 hours. 30 times 12 is 360 pages. You don’t think you can do that? You don’t think that I can make the process easier? I know, I am setting you up, but it is because the book you will write is one I have been waiting to read for a very long time. I am excited to see you come out on the other side of this.

P: Lord, where do I start? What am I writing?

L: You have already started. The book is about what love is. The book is about Me. This is the book, but it will become more than you have imagined yet. I am going to unlock some new things to you.

Finding my voice

P: Lord, what woul you like to say to me this morning?

L: Go with the flow.

P: What does that mean?

L: Flow with me, Patrick. What is flow?

P: Motion, I guess. Like a river, but never ceasing. So, you want me to get carried away by the flow? I still don’t understand what that looks like.

L: You are holding on to something, so that you can feel some sort of safety, and keep yourself under control. Patrick, do you know that most people that die in a river drown while they are holding on to a log or something while the current continually pushes on them? Let go and let the current take you.

P: Well, what am I holding on to, and what is the current? I need some concrete understanding for these images.

L: You are holding on to your idea of what your life should look like. I am telling you to let go. Would you rather have a life that comes from your own design or my design? I understand you feel like you have become nothing in your life. That is not how I see you. I see you as someone great, someone who loves me, and about whom I am absolutely crazy. What s more true, what I see, or what you see?

P: I understand, Lord. But in the meantime, I am here trying to pay bills, trying to be a good husband and managing my house well, and I am failing. What do you say about that?

L: That you are not thinking creatively. I fed the 5000 with a few loaves and fish. I paid for our taxes with money from our morning catch.

P: Lord, how does that help me? Sure, I know in theory we are to do these things. But I have never seen it done, even by greater men in faith than myself. How can I expect to see these things? Besides, is not the thing I am holding on to much more selfish than feeding the hungry? I am worried about paying my own bills, and I am in debt for overspending in the past. How does all that help me?

L: Patrick, you can rely on yourself, or you can let go. Go with the flow and find out what is in store for you down the river. I tell you that my heart for you is good. How then can you be worried about what is to come?

P: Because what is has always been a mess, and if it isnt a mess, I seem to mess it up somehow. I want to let go and I want to trust You, but I do not know how to trust you and let go and let You take me down the river, because I am unclear on whether that means that I need to take my hands off my own life, or whether I need to listen and do only what you tell me, or whether I am missing the entire point.

L: Patrick, I have given you instructions for now. You have not done it. Write. Write anything. You will find your voice. I am with you, and I will show you many things. But you need to do it. Is it not coincidental that your inheritance in the house was a typewriter? This is a writing season for you, so write! Trust me to make the other connections for you. I asked you to trust me with your finances, and I will keep my word. If I can feed so many with a few loaves, what do you think I can do with your words? But you need to be faithful to write. These are my instructions: WRITE! You have more to say than you think.

P: OK, fine. How am I supposed to get started writing and what am I supposed to write?

L: Anything, any way it comes. You will find your voice, but you need to explore the options.