Tricked into a blessing

Me: Good morning, Lord. It is hard for me to find You this morning. I feel like You have tricked me. (for telling me to stay in a job from which I was fired the next day)

God: In a sense, I did. But not to laugh at you, not to ridicule you, not to shame you. I tricked you into a blessing. You learned a lesson and I answered the desire of you heart at the same time. What, then, is it about this that bothers you?

Me: I didn't expect it.

God: Ha! I will never be predictable. Patrick, when I was with the disciples, I constantly blew their minds with My words and actions. It is so wonderful to watch as mindsets are shattered. It isn't until you mind is totally unrestrained that all things become possible.

Patrick, you were going to ask Me this morning about what you were born to do. You were born to dream. Yes, you have a talent for developing ideas, but I created You to dream new and bigger ideas.

Why did I give you such a heart level revelation about the creative power in My love? Because it is your destiny to walk in that power. Now, join the creative power of my Love with the eternal perspective that you are learning to have. You are created to do great things. You aren't there yet, but you are well on your way.

Me: That's a little hard to swallow right now, Lord. But, I will receive it as well as I know how.

God: Ha! Don't think of My word over you today as something you must swallow before it becomes true. the truth of My word is what forms you, not you swallowing or digesting it. It will be done.

Me: Thank You, Lord. As for now, what shall I do? The prospect of returning to the office furniture industry is not that exciting to me. You have asked me several times, "What do you want?" I honestly do not know how to answer. You have told me to dig, and I do not know what digging in my heart looks like. What can You tell me about that?

God: Patrick, read your journals. You are an adventuring captain, something I have confirmed to you outside of this journal on more than one occasion. And, yes, you have a calling to pastor people. You have administrative talent, relational talent, teaching talent. Do you want to use these talents? Then go risk them in the marketplace and watch Me increase them.

Me: What do you mean, Lord?

God: Patrick, I mean that I am not giving you a specific mandate as far as your employment is concerned. I want you to consider what you want, how you want to use the talents I hae given you, and then use them however you see fit. I will increase them, Patrick. This is not a "test," rather it is your opportunity to co-create with Me. Patrick, your heart is revealing to you all the time what it does and doesn't want. Listen to it by quieting your mind and letting your heart speak.

Me: What does it sound like, Lord?

God: It sounds like Me, because it is where I live.